So it’s been a little rough for me these last few weeks. It’s seems the deeper I dig into my past. The more demons I have to face. It felt as if I was reliving some up it, which opened up new wounds and pulled the scabs off the old ones. This time I decided to handle things differently. No more just sitting there in my pain. I began to pray and ask God to heal me from all this pain. Take me through whatever he needed to take me through, but when he’s done please just heal my heart, my soul and my mind.
So along with the praying I decided that I would also try and remember some of my favorite moments in life. The bad may seem to outweigh the good, but I was blessed to have had some pretty amazing moments in my life. Moments that I wouldn’t trade for anything. So I wanted to share with you some of those special moments…
1.Tea parties with my brother
He used to go buy champagne soda and butterfinger bbs for our tea parties. He would let me pour the soda in my teapot and I would serve the candies on little plates. You couldn’t tell me I wasn’t fancy.
- The day my mom let me play restaurant with all this money
She had all this cash. It had to be a few thousand. I have no idea where it came from. I put all the money in my cash register and I was ready for business. I made my brother spend all the money my mom gave him at my restaurant.
- The first time my dad took me shopping at woodbury
You couldn’t tell me my dad wasn’t rich. Every store I went in he let me buy stuff. It was the first time anyone had taken my shopping and let me pick out whatever I wanted.
- When my grandmother(dads mom) use to let me do pageants
It was just fun. She really likes getting the chance to dress me up.
- Coming back from down south with a really bad toothache
I know your looking at this one like I’m Crazy. It wasn’t the toothache that was special, but because of the toothache I got to cuddle up under my grandma on the way home. I got to lay on her lap and she hugged me for the rest of the ride while she hummed and prayed. This is definitely one of my top 2 moments.
- Every moment I ever got to spend with my grandpa John
Grandpa John was just the best. I would go to his house and he would make my sandwiches. We would sit and watch the stories together. We would talk, and then he would teach me how to play cards. Every moment with him he made sure I felt special.
- Car rides with my mom, my uncle and my cousin
My mom drove this long red Cadillac. When my uncleCame over he would bring his son. They would throw us in the back on the floor with all these toys. We used to be in the back on the floor just rolling around while they were making turns.
- Playing in the rain with my mom
Couple days before she died there was a big rainstorm and she took me outside to play in it. We ran, we jumped, we laughed. It was the best day of my life
- The last couple of weeks I got to spend with my uncle
My uncle and I never really seemed to get along. I guess he didn’t speak to me much because himAnd my mom didn’t get along. The last few weeks of his life that all changed. He apologized to me, and we really started to build a relationship that I miss so Much. We used to go out and eat and he would pick out good books for me to read.
- The day my son was born
I had prayed and cried so much for him to just be ok. The day he was born I was alone and scared. I got to speak to my grandma right before I had him and she started praying for me, and in that moment I realized that I wasn’t alone like I thought. I woke up after my C-section asked if he was chocolate and ok they told me yes and knocked me back out. That was the day I figured out what unconditional love was.
- The day I brought my son home from the hospital
I waited for that day for so long. I was so excited he was finally leaving the hospital after being there for 3 months. I was also really scared that I would get him home, and not be able to take care of him.
- The day my dad showed up at the hospital while I was pregnant
I called him and told him I was stuck in the hospital, and he told me he was coming to check on me. I Judy didn’t believe it. When I opened my eyes and saw him standing there I wanted to cry. We were on the road to having the relationship I always wanted us to have.
- The day I got married
It was a simple day just so full of love.
- The day I became an Eastern Star
I felt like I became just a little bit closer with my mom. It also helped me to build my relationship with my dads side of the family
- My first Eastern Star dance
I had the best time ever. I was surrounded by friends and family. First I’ve ever seen that many people show up anywhere for me. I felt so loved.
A Moment in my TRUTH 